I froze.
The right words were ready to come out of my mouth.
But they didn't come.
Everything I've been trying to get across to her from the very beginning, the most important thing I've wanted and needed her to know and believe in could have been cemented in her heart at that moment in one or two sentences.
And I froze.
Even though I know if she stopped to think about it for just a moment, she would know the truth.
She shouldn't have to think about it, though.
She shouldn't have to ever wonder.
I should have given her the confirmation she needed...
And I didn't.
And I can't correct that.
And even though she might truly know in her heart what the truth is, what I wanted to say...
I didn't say it in the moment she needed to hear it.
And it broke her heart.
Which breaks my heart.
And it can't be undone.
That moment is forever cemented now as the one in which I didn't live up to what I've always promised.
